Detoxifying

I have been reading some classmates' blogs and can identify with their struggles to make a living out of writing. There is that gnawing feeling that you are on the verge of selling out or doing a disservice to your craft by wielding the pen as a renegade for hire. You learn how to write by template to suit the bubbly superficial temper of most magazines or the narrow requirements of newspapers.

There comes a point when you feel you can't write anymore. You don't want to write anymore because you know everything you write is crap. You hesitate and cringe at calling yourself a writer because you feel more like a monkey at a keyboard. And this is not what you had in mind or heart.

You feel a need to detoxify. You don't just want to make a living out of writing. You want to make a writing out of living.