Wanted: Inspiration in the new millenium

Here now is my attempt to take a more disciplined approach to writing. Inspiration lives on a different planet it seems and I am left to my own devices. To reach inward, excavate and retrieve with only my bare hands.
This may be a last ditch effort at survival because truly, I feel that I am close to urging death to visit upon me.
I feel as if the time I live in is so crass. Caring only for technology and politics, money and success. Too sterile a tablecloth to allow the stain of passion to seep through and spread.
I am stirred right now by another world I wish I could live in. Characters I am in love with and in whose lives I plot to intrude in. It borders on madness but it keeps my heart beating beyond a regular pace and I must explore it.
It is a delicate situation however, because I know what I dream is impossible.
I will think of things I have seen and experienced that have moved me. They are few and small in this impossible universe but I know they were real. A poor lady rescuing abandoned kittens in a shoebox being eaten alive by ants. She placed down her plastic bag of fried bananas and had climbed over a leaning fence to the soft mews hidden in the brush. Another lady on the street with a young boy, a family member I gathered from the warmth exchanged between them, hunched over a book. The lady in garish clothes by our standards but her best in her world. I felt as if she was optimistic about looking for work and providing for this child. A little girl with a blind eye under a pedestrian overpass. The daughter of a cigarette and newspaper vendor. She waits for the rain to bring in some extra coins, so miniscule as to be unquantifiable in the world’s exchange but a windfall to her. She waits by the bookstore in the rain with an umbrella larger than her to keep you and I dry as we walk to our cars. I hope they are treated well by the world and are compensated for their suffering somehow. Yet I know if wish that, I must accept that I too deserve less when the balances are adjusted.